How can it be? you help them and ask for non back. Why? why do they fucking hate you? what the fuck you wrong with your fucking life that made them spite in your fucking face? Do they aware whats the shit you've been through your life? Do they know why you unlike them? but you don't care about what they think, you only care how can you be useful to them. But after you help them, they leave to die alone. They don't give a fuck about you, they don't give a shit whether you need help too or got feelings.. all they care is their own ass..
Like my stepbrother, David Draiman sad:
You walk on like a woman in suffering
Won't even bother now to tell me why
You come alone, letting all of us savor the moment
Leaving me broken another time
You come on like a bloodstained hurricane
Leave me alone, let me be this time
You carry on like a holy man pushing redemption
I don't want to mention, the reason I know
Disturbed - Stricken, Ten Thousand Fists, 2005
Are they know me? Are they met me? Who are they to judge me? I never asked for anything . All I ask was to die peacefully.. knowing I've done all I wanted to..
I'm sorry for made mistakes.. Sorry for what i've cause, but it's me and who I
can be and all what i'll ever be.. It just me in the way I am..
Sorry mister perfect, sorry miss world, sorry mr. prime minister, sorry mr. president, sorry buddy, sorry honey, but I am what I am. and if you don't like it, you can get the fuck out of my eyes, cause i'm sick of this shit. No more mr. nice guy, no more mr. sorry, no more help! you want some, you give some! And this time, I won some, you lose some. End of story, I win, you fall.
After all what you've done to me, I can say this:
Evil can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs you then walk away
You
will remember the night you were struck by the sight of
Ten Thousand fists in air
Disturbed - Ten Thousand Fists, Ten Thousand Fists, 2005
I remember someone sad to me:
You were bold and strong, and ready to begin your life
All for nothing, you were sacrificed
You began alone, and so it will be when you die
All for nothing, will you be remembered
And then he sad: "You did decide". I decided else! I will be remembered! whether you like it or not
Sorry for this shit.. It's something I must live with everyday..
sincerely
Jay